Night~

夜深人静的晚上，我家的人竟然还没睡觉。刚刚冲完凉，顿时觉得自己精神多了。。最近总觉得自己怪怪的，空虚是来自于哪里？为什么时不时就来向我敲门？曾经看过部电影，说到空虚的恐怖性，人堕落往往是因为空虚。那我怎么办？以后回槟城遇到这样的状况怎么办呢？没有他在身边我真担心我会熬不过来。。不行，别把问题看得那么大，神是大过任何的问题，只要依靠他什么都能迎刃而解。懒了，动了整天脑筋现在想休息下，就在这里说晚安吧。。

Bad Mood..

Just feel bad mood right now after taking a "short" nap at 6 something. I have told myself try to control and not to lose ones temper on anybody. But very unfortunately mostly the victim will be someone close to me such as family or boyfriend. Ish, i know is very unfair and the appreciation upon them should be have more compare to outsiders..but human kind are very weird in managing their feeling, the more you close the more you will behave like nobody.. Don't you agree, and expert say this is behavior of a person when with the the closest one.. being yourself and to be truthful to them. For what i think, mostly truthful thing in me is more to negative, susah lah macam tu to be my closest one.. Lolz..

Adventurous Week

I had a bustling schedule throughout a week.. I was suppose to update this on last friday but with a couples of reasons i could not make it. Well, i managed to have my personal travel on my last friday by taking lunch alone which i not used to it and....i swear this is my very first time in my entire life, where i went for movie alone called "the valentine's day" which i suppose to watch with someone. I never do this before and my characteristic are not allow me to do that, for people who knew me, they know.. But Thanks Lord that i have overcome it..lolz.. Is kinda weird watching movie alone, sitting with the strangers, no ones to talk and share about the story, keep silent all the time which is one of the difficulties to me.. but is OK, cause i had my first experience on last friday and the date was 5 Mac 2010. Anyway, i have my great dinner at a very special restaurant named "the appartment" , which located at Damansara, Street of The Curve. Wonderful scene and i love the crowds over there. Unfortunately my dear choosy character make him unable to enjoy with the food he ordered.

Well, tonight was an adventurous night for me and Huey Li as well, why i say that? After , we are lost in The mines, unable to find our parking place and have been going around the shopping center without direction. What make us find the way is when a guard yelling on us and asked us where to go. Just imagine 2 girls lost in the shopping center and being guide by a stranger guard into a darkish place, fortunately it was the right place and manage to help us get back into the car. hoooh....Thanks God that i am safe to be home..:) but i told myself no 2nd time in The Mines. But one thing should be mention here is the reward after my public finance paper, "Nandos" the great dinner and wonderful sharing with Huey Li.

传道书之旅（三）

觉得今天的传道书和上礼拜牧师的信息有点贴切，牧师的主题是《当活今日》，而传道书提到人生虚度的日子就如影儿经过，谁知道什么与他有益呢？谁能告诉他身后在日光之下有什么事呢？意味着人的生命并不是在人掌控之中，一切在神的手中。。正因为没有人知道未来，所以我们都要好好地过每一天，也应在一切的计划上仰望神，而不仅是展望将来。而今天的我在应付考试，是否应该好好珍惜和把握现在呢？也许已经要毕业了，所以很多事情都看开了尤其是考试。。可是还是要尽力啦。。加油！！另外，今天特别喜欢所罗门的这个深解，对神有正确的态度能帮助我们应付目前的不义。荣华富贵不一定是好的，而患难也不全是坏的。只有神永远是好的；如果我们按照他的心意生活，就会心满意足。对神有深刻的认识，能帮助我们积极的活每一天。就如以下的图画：广阔的道路意味着很多的uncertainties，但只要积极与专心的仰望前面的阳光，它就是那指引你到正确的destiny..

救命啊。。

发现这地方是我发泄的好地方，之前还想把这blog余人分享，想想还是别那么冲动，这里可是有很多不可告人的秘密。今天其实心情很不好，被人放了飞机，还用一个很烂的理由当借口！要关在一个鸟不生蛋的地方，真的在这里叫苦连天也没人会听到一个鬼地方。。之前馨莹还告诉我：她生气因为朋友放她飞机，那时的我还tam她不要生气，小事而已。。怎么知道这样的事情也临到我，你说气不气？真是莫名其妙，叫人不要气怎知自己在这里暗气。。到底之后我应该继续气还是装无事呢？好烦哦。。在新年前已经乱了很久想看戏，我的wolfman都不知道下影了没有？可是就是没人陪我去。。自从他做了这份工，我知道自己不能期盼他的时间了，因为试用期，所以比较忙，合理吗？当然合理。。可是我就必须学习迁就，学习改变自己的生活。。还搞到人家以为我有精神压力，要带我去看心理医生，真不知道搞笑还是我真的病了？这样的生活会不会搬回槟城而有改善呢?当时知道要回去做工的确有点难过，而且还担心远距离的恋爱是否行不行？可是往好方面想，这两年的分开是不是可以给个空间他好好发展自己的事业呢？至少没有我在这里霸占他的时间，他可以专心点。。可是身为女人的我还是有所保留，有点担心的叻。。haiz，没有结局的东西只会让人更烦心，可是怎样才不烦？真叫人救命。。

攻心计

刚看完港剧播的<宫心计>,没想到我也有机会亲身经历我的生活剧。我常告诉人，有人的地方就有麻烦，就有摩擦，也有问题。。如果牵涉金钱利益的话，情况更不简单。因为一些的事情，我成了两者之间的磨心，当然事情的来龙去脉并不能用三言两语来诉说。。可是为了得到自己的利益，攻心计这个游戏实在是免不了的。。那时的我才知道人的嘴可以多么的有影响力，也可以有多么大的破坏性。那时的我一直叫自己要保持中立，不偏左也不偏右，神赐给我的智慧总算给我熬过了。。可是从这件事看来，我所得到的总结是：表面上赢得很风光得人，他却赔上了人对他的信任，输了人对他的坦诚。而表面上输了的人，可是他却赢得了他的自由，赢得了他所愿的。。当事情在发生时，也许大家都在问神为什么让这样的是发生？可是当我们去观察事情的结局时，也许那时我们看漏了神在这件事情上的美意。。所以所罗门王说得没错：人懂得事情实在很有限，怎能猜透神的意念呢？

传道书之旅（二）

今天的灵修心得让我有所领悟，发觉神常常在我身边给与我教导和指引。多言本是我的优点也是我的弱点，威宏常告诉我说多错多，说少错少。起初我确实难以接受，要我少说话的确有点难叻。。可是神透过传道书再次提醒我，“言语多就显出愚昧”，不可任你的口使肉体犯罪，为何使神因你的声音发怒，败坏你手所做的呢？” 求神帮助我，让我有智慧的去说话。。好叫我从错误中学习，不再重蹈覆辙。因为这个缺点让我承受了很大的惩罚，也让我失去了一个好朋友。。